It’s OK To Feel Out Loud

For most of my adult life I stuffed down my feelings. If I was feeling something I thought was bad or embarrassing or anything I thought put a negative light on me I wouldn’t let myself feel it. I would talk down to myself if my feelings bubbled up to the surface, and looked down […]

Looking Through Your Own Tinted Glasses

It is easy in life to look at things through our own tinted glasses. We sometimes look through a lens that makes things look better than they are, allowing ourselves to continue bad behavior or justify the choices we’re making when we may know we should be making others. We look through a lens that […]

Are You Disconnected From Yourself?

For much of my life, I felt like I had stepped out of myself and was observing my life from a distance. Not having a way to feel my feelings in a healthy way and a way that promoted my growth, I hide from my feelings and eventually, when the pain got to be too […]

Slay Say

Good morning SLAYER! What’s behind your walls? New blog goes up Sunday, until then… SLAY on!

Do You Build Up Walls To Protect Your Disease?

When I was living in my disease I built up walls. I thought I was building them up to protect me from all of you. From the big bad cruel world that was out to get me. But what I was really doing was building walls to protect my disease so I could stay sick. […]

Celebrate Instead Of Isolate

The holiday season is here and it’s a time that may not be all that jolly for everyone. I know for myself, before I started my journey on my current path, I dreaded all holidays. It was a time that made me feel like hiding or escaping and I felt pressured to have a good […]

Tell On Yourself So You Can Hear It

Before walking this path I hid a lot of things. And, as my disease progressed so did the list of secrets I was keeping. I was ashamed at how I was living my life and worked hard to keep what was going on from the people in my life, and that required keeping many things […]

The Shame And Guilt Quilt

When I was in my disease I walked around constantly wrapped in my shame and guilt quilt. I had done it so long I had gotten quite comfortable in it. It felt safe wrapped in there, but it was keeping me from getting well. I walked around with a lot of guilt and shame before […]

Losing Touch With Who You Used To Be

I’m often reminded of who I used to be. Gratefully, I get many chances to share my story of where I came from with people like myself, who are on this same path, or just beginning their journey, and it’s in sharing what I used to be like that I realize how far away I […]

Feelings Can’t Kill You, But Avoiding Them Can

Before walking this path I did everything I could to not feel. Whatever it took, I just didn’t want to feel anything, good or bad. I had spent my life trying to hide and stuff down my feelings, to pretend that everything was OK, even when things very much weren’t, and I had done such […]