Silence Isn’t Empty It’s Full Of Answers

When I was sick I was afraid of silence. Silence for me back then was anything but silent, when things were quiet my head was the loudest. I tried to avoid silence at all costs, so much so that I would constantly numb and distract myself to avoid it. When I walked on the street […]

Honesty Takes Practice

If I’m being honest, I wasn’t always honest in the past. In fact, I wasn’t even honest about how dishonest I was! I had become so accustomed to bending the truth, and justifying it, that my perception of the truth had become so warped I didn’t even know I was doing it a lot of […]

The Shame And Guilt Quilt

When I was in my disease I walked around constantly wrapped in my shame and guilt quilt. I had done it so long I had gotten quite comfortable in it. It felt safe wrapped in there, but it was keeping me from getting well. I walked around with a lot of guilt and shame before […]

Bringing Love To Your Wounds

Often times we are the ones who hurt ourselves the most. And even in times when someone else may be hurting us, we allow them to do it, whether directly or indirectly, by engaging with that person or putting ourselves in the situation to begin with. But, most times we are the ones who do […]

Humility Coming From Pain

I know for me, it took a lot of pain before I found any humility, it actually took me getting knocked down to me knees, time and time again, until I finally surrendered. Up until that point, I thought I knew better, knew what was best for me, and usually, what was best for you […]

Mental Illness – THAT Label

When I was suffering in my disease I didn’t tell anyone what as going on with me. I carried a lot of fear and shame for how I was living my life and thought that if I did tell someone the thoughts that ran through my head, and the things I was doing daily just […]

Deny Denial

When I was living in my disease I was totally in denial about how sick I was. I would tell myself stories about how it was everyone else’s fault or that things weren’t really that bad, they were. No matter what happened, or how bad things got, I never admitted the truth to myself until […]

You Can’t Mend If You Bend The Truth

When I finally found the courage to ask for help, I was told I was going to need to get rigorously honest with myself to get well. Even thought those words seemed scary to me I was at such a low I was willing to do anything, so I of course agreed and set out […]

We’re Only As Sick As Our Secrets

Secrets, we all have them, my whole life used to be a secret, I would hide what I was thinking and doing from everyone in my life, ashamed, confused, and angry. I kept everything inside and consequently became very sick, my secrets nearly cost me my life. And it was me, I had control of […]