self love journey

Chase Purpose, Not People

There was a time in my life when I was constantly chasing people—their attention, their approval, their love.

I thought if I could earn it, maybe I’d finally feel like I was enough.

But no matter how much I gave, how much I bent, or how much of myself I lost in the process…
it never felt like enough.

Because it was never supposed to be.

I wasn’t meant to chase people.
I was meant to chase purpose.
And so were you.

When We Abandon Ourselves

When we get stuck in the cycle of proving our worth to others, we end up abandoning ourselves.

We ignore what lights us up.
We try to become what we think they want.
We twist. We shrink. We perform.

We lose the very parts of ourselves that were never meant to be hidden.

And the worst part?
The more we shape-shift to please, the more invisible we become—to others and to ourselves.

Purpose Doesn’t Need to Be Impressed

Purpose is steady.
It doesn’t need applause.
It doesn’t need permission.

It doesn’t ask you to chase it—only to follow.

When I started focusing on my purpose—my healing, my growth, my creativity, my peace—it all got clearer.

I could see what was aligned.
I could feel who was for me and who never was.
The people who truly belonged in my life didn’t need to be convinced. They didn’t need to be chased. They just showed up.

And not for what I could do for them.
But for who I was becoming.

Let Purpose Lead

The truth is:
You are never too much for the right people.
And you are never not enough for the path that was made for you.

So if you’re feeling left out, overlooked, or unseen—it might not be because something’s wrong with you.

It might be because you’re not meant to follow them.

You’re meant to follow you.

Let your purpose lead.
It knows the way.

SLAY Reflection

Do you ever find yourself chasing people instead of aligning with your purpose?
What does “chasing purpose” look like in your life right now?
Who in your life supports your growth without needing you to earn their love?
What’s one step you can take today to move closer to your purpose?
How might your life shift if you stopped proving yourself and started honoring yourself?

S — Show up for yourself
L — Let go of needing approval
A — Align with your purpose
Y — Yield to what feels right, not who feels familiar

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
What’s something you’ve stopped chasing in order to start honoring your purpose?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s trying to hold onto people instead of themselves, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a nudge.

Authenticity Is a Higher Vibration Than Joy and Love

We spend so much of our lives chasing happiness, love, and the so-called “good vibes.” But what if the real key to alignment isn’t about always being joyful or even feeling loved? What if the most powerful shift we can make is to be authentic?

Because here’s the truth: authenticity is a higher vibration than joy and love.

The Truth About Vibration

Energy doesn’t lie. And when you’re pretending, pleasing, or performing, your vibration lowers—even if you’re smiling through it.

Joy without truth is performative. Love without boundaries is self-abandonment.

Authenticity, however, is rooted in truth. It’s grounded in presence. It’s the real you. And when we operate from that space, we emit the clearest, most powerful frequency we have. We show up aligned—and everything around us responds to that.

Real Over Perfect

There was a time when I thought I had to look happy to be happy. Smile through the pain. Be grateful when I was struggling. Be kind even when I was breaking.

But fake it ‘til you make it can only take you so far.

The day I stopped trying to be perfect and started being real—everything changed. People connected more deeply with me. My relationships became healthier. I became healthier. Because I wasn’t trying to stay high-vibe. I was trying to stay real.

And that is the vibe the universe actually responds to.

How Authenticity Heals

When we give ourselves permission to be real, we invite others to do the same. We create safety. We foster trust. We show others what it looks like to live in truth, not performance.

Authenticity says:

  • I feel this, even if it’s messy.
  • I’m not perfect, and I don’t have to be.
  • I can still be lovable, even when I’m struggling.

And that is where true love and joy can actually take root. Not in the performance of being okay—but in the truth of being whole.

Authenticity Is a Practice

Being authentic doesn’t mean sharing everything or letting your emotions run unchecked. It means showing up honestly.

It means:

  • Saying no when you mean no.
  • Speaking up when something matters.
  • Honoring your feelings without needing to justify them.

It means being clear about who you are—and being okay with the fact that not everyone will get it. Because your alignment matters more than approval.

The Frequency of Truth

Your truth has its own frequency. When you live it, you attract what’s meant for you. You repel what isn’t. You stop chasing and start receiving.

Authenticity isn’t a trend. It’s a vibration.

And the more you live it, the more powerful you become. Not because you’re trying to be powerful—but because there’s nothing stronger than someone who is fully themselves.

SLAY Reflection

  1. Where in your life are you performing instead of being real?
  2. What does authenticity feel like in your body?
  3. What would it look like to choose authenticity over approval?
  4. Have you mistaken being “high vibe” with being emotionally bypassing?
  5. What part of your truth are you ready to reclaim?

S-L-A-Y:

  • Speak your truth, even when it shakes
  • Let go of the need to be liked
  • Align with your values, not someone else’s
  • You are your most powerful when you are real

Call to Action: Join the Conversation
I’d love to hear from you.
Where in your life are you ready to get real?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s stuck in performance mode, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a reminder.

Slay Say

You are not the story they’ve written in their minds.

It’s easy to fall into the trap of defending who we are, trying to explain, prove, or reshape ourselves so others will see us clearly.
But you don’t exist to be understood by everyone.
You exist to live your truth—even if it disrupts the version they created.

You don’t owe anyone a more comfortable narrative.
You owe yourself the freedom to be whole, honest, and real.

SLAY ON!

Slay Say

Love From Within

We all want to feel seen. Valued. Chosen.
But chasing validation from others can leave us emptier than before.

Because the most powerful kind of love?
The kind you don’t have to earn.
The kind you give yourself.

Let your inner voice speak with compassion.
Let your worth be non-negotiable.
Let your self-love be louder than your longing.

This is your reminder: You don’t need to be picked to belong to yourself.

SLAY on!

Sometimes Happy Is a Feeling, Sometimes Happy Is a Choice

Let’s be honest: some days happiness wraps around you like a warm blanket. Other days, it’s a threadbare flag you have to raise yourself, even when the wind isn’t blowing.

Sometimes, happy arrives uninvited. A smile you didn’t expect. A moment of peace. Laughter that catches you by surprise. These are the days when joy feels natural. Effortless. When your heart feels light and your worries take a back seat. These are the days you wish you could bottle.

But what about the other days? The days when you wake up heavy, when your body aches with exhaustion, when your mind is cluttered and your heart is a storm cloud? What then?

That’s when happy becomes a choice. And yes, sometimes, it’s the hardest choice you can make.

Feel It When It Comes

We all have seasons where happiness seems to bloom everywhere—inside us and around us. These are the easy days. The ones where gratitude feels automatic, and your smile is real. And when those moments show up?

Let them.

Don’t question the joy. Don’t wait for the other shoe to drop. Let yourself feel good without guilt. You don’t have to earn happiness for it to be valid. It’s not a reward, it’s a gift. And you are allowed to receive it, just because you exist.

Too many of us hesitate to feel joy because we’re afraid it won’t last. But here’s the truth: happiness isn’t permanent, but it is powerful. And when it comes naturally, lean in. Let it soak into your skin.

Choose It When It Feels Out of Reach

And then there are the other days.

The days when happy feels like a stranger.

That’s when you make the choice to reach for it anyway. You choose to smile. To take a walk. To text a friend. To wash your hair. To play a song that makes you sway just a little. To say thank you, even when you’re not quite feeling it.

This isn’t toxic positivity. This is resilience. This is saying, “I know I feel low, but I’m going to plant the seeds of joy anyway.” And over time, those seeds bloom.

Happiness isn’t about denying what hurts. It’s about refusing to let the hurt define the whole day.

You Are Allowed to Want More

Here’s a powerful truth: you don’t have to settle. Not for a life that keeps you stuck. Not for a mindset that keeps you small. You are allowed to chase joy. To design a life that feels good on the inside, not just one that looks good from the outside.

And when you can’t find it? You can choose it. You can create it.

Even if that looks like a slow morning with coffee and quiet.

You are not failing if you have to fight for your happiness. That’s not weakness. That’s strength.

Some Days It’s Both

Sometimes happy is a breeze. Sometimes it’s a battle.

And sometimes, it’s a little bit of both.

Either way, you have the power to feel it, create it, or reach for it. You don’t have to wait for life to feel perfect before you allow yourself to be happy. Let it show up in small ways. Invite it in. And when it comes, don’t push it away.

You are allowed to feel good. You are allowed to choose good. You are allowed to live a life that includes joy.

Even on the hard days.

SLAY Reflection

  1. When was the last time you felt joy without effort? What triggered it?
  2. Do you feel guilty when you’re happy? Why?
  3. What’s one small way you could choose joy today?
  4. How can you remind yourself that happiness isn’t a reward?
  5. What would your day look like if you let joy take up more space?

S-L-A-Y:

  • See where joy naturally shows up in your day
  • Let yourself lean into those moments
  • Acknowledge the hard feelings, but don’t stay stuck in them
  • You have the power to choose happiness, even in small ways

Call to Action: Join the Conversation
I’d love to hear from you.
What does choosing happiness look like for you right now?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s struggling to feel joy, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a reminder.

To Become Who You Truly Are, You Have to Let Go of Who They Told You to Be

For much of my life, I tried to be who they told me to be.

The “they” was everywhere—teachers, parents, partners, bosses, social media, society. Each one had a version of me they preferred. I wore those versions like outfits, hoping one of them would finally feel like me. But deep down, I always knew: I was playing a part written by someone else.

When You Live for Them, You Lose Yourself

Every time I molded myself to fit their expectations, I lost another piece of who I was. I became quieter when they said I was too much. I smiled when I wanted to cry. I said yes when everything inside me screamed no.

I wanted to be accepted so badly, I started rejecting myself.

Eventually, I reached a breaking point. I was exhausted. Not from being myself, but from not being myself. I had no idea who I was anymore—but I knew I couldn’t keep pretending. That was the first step.

Forget Who They Told You to Be

To find my true self, I had to unlearn the lies I’d been told:

  • That I was too sensitive.
  • That I needed to tone it down.
  • That my worth depended on being agreeable, pretty, polite, perfect.

None of that was me. It was who they needed me to be so they could be comfortable.

But I wasn’t born to make other people comfortable.

So I started letting go. I peeled back the layers of conditioning, people-pleasing, and perfectionism—and underneath, I found someone real. Someone strong. Someone worth knowing.

Becoming You Is a Brave Act

Choosing to be yourself—your real self—isn’t always easy. It might upset people. It might confuse them. It might even mean walking away from relationships or roles that no longer fit.

But becoming who you truly are is the most powerful act of self-love there is.

Every time you choose authenticity over approval, you build a life that actually feels like yours. And trust me, there is nothing more freeing than that.

You don’t have to be who they told you to be. You get to decide who you are.

SLAY Reflection

  1. Who told you who you “should” be?
  2. What roles or expectations are you still carrying that don’t feel like your own?
  3. When have you felt most like yourself?
  4. What’s one way you can show up more authentically today?
  5. What would your life look like if you stopped living for their approval?

S-L-A-Y:

  • Shed the stories that don’t belong to you.
  • Live your truth—loudly and unapologetically.
  • Acknowledge who you’ve always been beneath the noise.
  • You are allowed to become someone they don’t recognize.

Call to Action: Join the Conversation
I’d love to hear from you.
What part of yourself are you reclaiming today?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s stuck in a role they never chose, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a nudge.

Stop Waiting To Feel Ready

If I’m being honest, most of the time…I don’t feel ready.

Whether it’s a new opportunity, a big decision, or even sitting down to write something like this—I rarely feel 100% ready. If left to my own devices, I’d keep fine-tuning, researching, adjusting, and second-guessing. I’d wait until everything was “perfect.”

But what I’ve learned on this path is simple and powerful: ready isn’t a feeling—it’s a decision.

The Myth of “Feeling Ready”

We tell ourselves we’ll start when we feel more confident.
We’ll speak up when we feel more prepared.
We’ll leap when we feel less scared.

But the truth is, that feeling of readiness? It doesn’t always show up. And if it does, it usually comes after we’ve already taken action—not before.

The illusion of “readiness” keeps us stuck. We wait, thinking there’s some magical moment where we’ll feel different—bolder, braver, more equipped. But most opportunities don’t wait for us to feel ready.

They ask us to decide to be ready.

The Power of Deciding

In my life, there have been countless times I’ve had to make that decision.

Sometimes it was because of a deadline.
Sometimes it was because an opportunity had an expiration date.
Sometimes I just knew if I didn’t move forward, I’d stay stuck.

And every time, I’ve learned this: I didn’t need to know everything. I just needed to know enough to start.

Being ready doesn’t mean having every answer. It doesn’t mean knowing the full path. It means saying, “I’ve got what I need to take this step, and I’ll figure the next one out as I go.”

Do What’s In Front of Your Hands

One thing I’ve carried with me on my journey is this simple reminder:
Do what’s in front of your hands.

That means staying grounded in the present step—even when your mind wants to jump five steps ahead. Yes, it’s wise to have a vision. I like to look a little ahead, to prepare for what’s coming. But the real growth? It happens in the now.

When you focus on what’s right in front of you—just the next task, the next decision, the next act of courage—you start to build momentum. And that momentum leads to clarity, confidence, and more opportunity.

Progress, Not Perfection

Waiting until you feel ready often comes from a deeper fear of making mistakes. But perfection isn’t the goal—progress is.

You’re allowed to make messy starts.
You’re allowed to learn as you go.
You’re allowed to pivot, evolve, and adjust your plan.

Because the truth is, the journey is the point. It’s not about getting it “right” the first time. It’s about moving forward, learning, and becoming.

You’re not behind. You’re not unqualified. You’re simply standing at the edge of the next thing. And all that’s left is to decide to begin.

Make the Decision Today

If you’ve been waiting for the perfect moment to start, here’s your sign: stop waiting.

Make the decision. Be willing to show up before you feel completely ready. Trust that you’ll grow into each next step—and that you already have everything you need to begin.

The truth is, you won’t always feel ready.
But you can always choose to be.

SLAY Reflection

Let’s check in, SLAYER:

  • S: What are you currently putting off because you don’t feel “ready”?
  • L: What would change if you decided to start anyway?
  • A: Can you identify one small step you can take today, even if you don’t feel prepared?
  • Y: How can you reframe readiness as a mindset instead of a feeling?

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
What’s something you’ve been waiting to feel ready for—and how can you choose to begin today instead?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s stuck waiting for the “perfect moment,” send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a nudge.

The Language Of The Heart

I was talking with someone recently about truth—
that raw, honest place inside where there are no walls, no masks, no pretending.
That space where we allow ourselves to be vulnerable enough to let our truth speak to someone else’s truth.

That, to me, is the language of the heart:
one heart speaking to another.

Before I Could Speak From the Heart

Before walking this path, I didn’t speak that language. I couldn’t.
I was too afraid to let anyone see the real me.

I believed vulnerability was weakness.
I was convinced that if you saw who I really was, you’d run.
So I kept my heart closed. I played roles. I wore masks.
I hid behind a version of myself I thought the world would accept.

But all that hiding left me feeling even more isolated. Even more alone.
And the more I suppressed my truth, the more painful it became to carry it.

It took a long time to let that fear go.
To open the door—even just a crack—and let the truth come through.

Surrender Is Where It Began

I had to surrender.
Admit that my way wasn’t working.
That my silence, my pretending, my performance—it was keeping me stuck. Sick.

That surrender became a turning point.
The moment I let go of control was the moment I took my power back.

From there, I was told something that has stayed with me:
You have to be rigorously honest if you want to get better.

No more pretending. No more hiding. No more playing small.

And that honesty? It wasn’t just about speaking truth to others.
It was about telling the truth to myself. Every day. Even when it felt uncomfortable. Even when it was messy.

The Power of Speaking From the Heart

The more I spoke from the heart, the more comfortable I became living in that truth.
And the more honest I was, the deeper my connections became.

But I won’t lie—it wasn’t always easy.
There were still times I held things back, thinking I wasn’t ready to let them go.
But each time I did, I felt the disconnection.
The space it created. The wall it built between me and the people who loved me.

Now, I know better.
When I’m not honest, I lose those connections.
I lose myself.

Honesty—heart-led honesty—is what keeps me aligned, connected, and free.

Your Truth Is Beautiful

It can feel scary to speak from the heart. To show someone your truth.
But that is the place where our most beautiful, powerful self lives.

Even when our truth is sad. Or messy. Or uncertain.
If it’s honest, it’s real.

And when we speak from that place, we give others permission to do the same.

So open your heart.
Speak your truth.
Let your light guide you—and light the way for someone else.

SLAY on.

SLAY OF THE DAY: Reflect & Rise

Do you speak your truth—or do you hide behind what you think others want to hear?

  • What fears keep you from being fully seen?

  • Are those fears yours—or were they passed down to you?

  • How has sharing your truth helped you or someone else?

  • What would it look like to speak more from your heart—today?

The language of the heart is honest, raw, and real.
When we speak it, we don’t just heal ourselves—we create space for others to heal, too.

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
What helps you speak the language of your heart?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s been afraid to share their truth, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is permission to be real.

Was Blind But Now I See

I was listening to Andrea Bocelli’s moving performance of “Amazing Grace” recently at the Duomo cathedral in Milan. As I heard the words “I was blind but now I see,” it struck me deeply. I hadn’t really thought about that line before—just the song as a whole and what it meant—but it reminded me of the years I spent struggling.

There was a time when I didn’t believe I was worth saving, a time when I had lost hope. Back then, I was blind. I was blind to myself, my life, my behavior—thinking I was someone I wasn’t, living a life I wasn’t. I saw only what my mind told me to see, not the truth of what was really going on.

I was living in the darkness of my mind, while the real me—the person I truly was—slowly slipped away under the layers of garbage I kept piling on.

Seeing the Truth for What It Is

We tend to see what we want to see, don’t we? Whether it’s good or bad, we often paint ourselves a picture we choose to believe. Some of us hide behind a picture-perfect fantasy; others choose to cloak everything in doom and gloom.

But the truth is, life usually falls somewhere in the middle—often not as extreme as our minds want us to believe.

I used to use distractions and numbing behaviors to avoid the truth. Even during this time of isolation and home seclusion, those distractions are still available. Facing the truth is uncomfortable. It’s so much easier to stay behind the veil of the story we tell ourselves.

For me, the truth was standing right in front of me, and I could no longer hide. It took realizing that continuing to hide from my truth would ultimately destroy me. When I finally sought help, that veil was lifted. And while seeing the truth was painful at first, it was also freeing.

Freedom in Truth

The truth was my chance to make changes. To see the mess my life had become. To recognize the lies my head had been feeding me.

At first, it was easier to hide and live in a world of my own choosing, but things were never going to get better in that place. I was lucky to have seen the truth when I did, and that I was still able to do something about it. Not everyone gets that chance.

When we are willing to face the truth, we give ourselves the opportunity to change what we don’t like. Or at least, to improve things. Truth gives us clarity to make better choices and to see how those choices affect not just us, but those around us.

It’s within truth that real change is possible. It’s where we find the opportunity to become someone we are proud of—someone who lives a life we want, not one we’re pretending to live.

So take off the glasses that may be clouding your vision. Look at your life for what it truly is, and use that vision to build a life you are proud to see.

SLAY on.

SLAY OF THE DAY: Reflect & Rise

  • Do you typically see things as they are, or do you see them as you choose to see them?

  • What do you see? Do you like it?

  • How much of what you don’t like is a result of your own choices?

  • What can you change to improve what you see?

  • Write an example of something you chose not to see and how it became a bigger problem.

  • Do you tend to overlook the good in your life? Why?

  • What good can you see if you look for it? How can you find and create more good?

When we face our truth, we gain clarity. And clarity gives us the opportunity to make changes—big or small—that can lead us to a better life.

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
What truth are you ready to face in your life?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s support each other in seeing things clearly.

And if you know someone who might need this reminder, send it to them. Sometimes, the first step is simply acknowledging we’re ready to see.

Accept The Gifts

For many of us, it isn’t easy asking for help or accepting it. During this time, it’s near impossible to do everything on our own. Life, very often, presents opportunities for us to not only humble ourselves and ask for what we need but also offers a chance for someone else to step up and be of service.

I’ve written before that it’s okay to ask for help. In fact, when we do, most of the time, it not only helps us but also helps the person we ask. It’s funny how that works. Just like when we need to talk to someone about what we’re going through—the person we open up to usually gets just as much out of the conversation as we do.

Releasing the Armor

When I was living in the dark, it was very difficult for me to ask for help. I thought it was a sign of weakness. I was proud to push through on my own, no matter what the collateral damage was. There were times when I’d gotten myself into situations I couldn’t get out of and was forced to ask for help, and I’d beat myself up for doing it. Or, in my twisted thinking, I’d justify it—I thought the help was owed to me because of past grievances, some imagined, some real.

Eventually, I realized that asking for help was not only necessary but an act of courage. That first reach-out was terrifying, but it was also a huge relief. It was the moment I took my power back.

Practicing the Art of Acceptance

Learning to continue asking for help and accepting the gifts that came my way was its own journey. For me, finding acceptance in myself and learning to love myself was the key to accepting gifts from others—and from life. I’m not just talking about physical gifts. Gifts come in many forms: a smile, a warm hug, a kind word.

I had to learn to believe I was worthy of receiving these gifts. I had to trust there wasn’t an ulterior motive and that these gestures were given from the heart. It took time, but the more I learned to simply say thank you and accept them, the easier it became. And the more I gave of myself—my time, my kindness—the more I understood the power of these simple gestures.

Don’t Steal the Gift

When we refuse a gift or brush off a compliment, we’re telling the giver they’re wrong. That doesn’t feel good to anyone. To simply say thank you and leave it at that is a practice of grace. It allows us to learn to accept good things and allows the other person the experience of giving.

Right now, we can all benefit from both giving and receiving. But it’s essential for our spirit and self-worth to practice receiving with gratitude. When we do, it fills our hearts, shows us we’re worthy of kindness, and reminds us we deserve good things.

Don’t let pride or discomfort block these moments. Nothing happens by mistake. There’s a reason for the giver and the receiver, and it may be bigger than either of you can imagine. If you feel compelled to give, do it. If you’re the lucky recipient, smile, say thank you, and know you were chosen for a reason.

SLAY OF THE DAY: Reflect & Rise

  • Do you have a hard time accepting gifts? Why do you think that is?

  • What was the last gift you accepted? How did it make you feel?

  • What was the last gift you gave? How did that make you feel?

  • Can you see how important it is to accept the gifts that come your way?

  • Why do you feel others deserve gifts more than you do? Why do you think you’re not worthy?

You are worthy, SLAYER. Gifts come into our lives to show us something, to lift our spirits, or to bring us closer together. Trust that the gifts coming your way are there for a reason. Say thank you, and feel it in your heart.

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
What’s one gift—big or small—you’ve accepted lately, and how did it make you feel?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s support each other.

And if you know someone who needs this reminder, send this to them.
Sometimes, a simple gesture says: “You’re worthy of good things, too.”