Good morning SLAYER! Be Yourself. Accept Yourself. Value Yourself. Forgive Yourself. Bless Yourself. Express Yourself. Trust Yourself. Love Yourself.
New blog goes up Tuesday, until then…SLAY on!
State Of Slay
Personal Love Letter
That’s right SLAYER, let’s slow down for a moment here, you’ve been working hard, and it’s important that you acknowledge that. You are incredible! You are love! You inspire me every day! You are a warrior! You are a survivor! You are giving! You are kind! You are beautiful! You are strong! You, you are a work of art, and I am honored to have you SLAY along with me.
I felt like was important to celebrate us today. To exhale and do something we don’t always do, pat ourselves on the back for what we’ve accomplished in our lives, to acknowledge it, to acknowledge us; the changes we’ve made, the obstacles we’ve overcome, the fears we’ve walked through, the people, places, and things we’ve said goodbye to, all the things we’ve done to live as our authentic self, honoring and loving who we are.
We also need to remember to be patient and gentle with ourselves, we are precious cargo, sensitive souls, and it’s always good to check in and see if we’re taking time with ourselves to learn, grow, and move forward. Life is not a game show, there is no buzzer that’s going to sound off if we’ve taken too long, we move at our own pace…as long as we’re moving, and we do what we can each day, and don’t judge that. Sometimes we leap, and sometimes we crawl, but as long as we’re moving forward we’re moving in the right direction. We are also not comparing our progress to anyone else’s, we are where we are, and maybe where we are is just right for today, maybe where we are helps us, and someone else, and maybe where they are does the same for us, trust that, and know that you are only responsible for your own journey, and your journey has it’s own timeline, and that timeline is unique to you, so the footwork and then just let it go.
For me, a lot of times, the issue I am struggling with may not come to me because I’m trying to force a conclusion or solution, or, I’m just not meant to find the answer at that moment, but when I stand back, and move on or maybe focus on something else, trusting, and asking for the answer to come, it does, it almost always does, at random times, when I’m doing something completely different and have moved on, then pop, there it is, and it always makes me smile. If that hasn’t happened for you that may seem like some mystical Jedi lore, but trust me, it can happen for you, and will, if you let things go, and, it is magic, and it is because we are magical human beings, and instead of us trying to run the show we’re letting whatever guides us through life do exactly that, we’re following the timeline we are mean to be on and not trying to force our own, letting it come to you when it’s supposed to and then taking action, maybe the process of letting it come to you is part of the solution, or lesson, or just part of the journey, trust that, and know that is all a part of your diving plan. Just be.
A friend recently shared an exercise that she did with some her close friends. They each wrote a letter to themselves. I encourage you SLAYER to do the same. Write a letter, or postcard, to yourself, telling yourself the things you would want to hear from the person you love the most, but, say it to yourself. Give it to a family member, friend, or spouse, to randomly mail to you, so that one day, when you’re not expecting it, and probably when you need it, a letter will come addressed to you, from you, telling yourself why you rock. You can also do this for others in your life as well, but, not forgetting to do your own letter. Do it SLAYER, you deserve it.
SLAY OF THE DAY: I started this blog by telling you the things I thought of you, so to get your own personal love letter started I want you to do it for yourself SLAYER. Here’s a start:
I am _____________________________________________________________________________
I am _____________________________________________________________________________
I am _____________________________________________________________________________
I am _____________________________________________________________________________
I am _____________________________________________________________________________
S – self L – love A – appreciate Y – you
Slayer Say
Good morning SLAYER! We alone build the walls and fences shutting us off from the world around us, and we alone can take those down. Let go of the fear of letting the outside world in, be true to yourself, stand tall, and set yourself free.
New blog goes up Sunday, until then…SLAY on!
Freedom: Outside Those Fences, We Build Ourselves
There was a time in my life when I was unraveling quietly.
On the outside, I was functioning. On the inside, I was doing everything I could to hide how lost I felt. During that season, a dear friend came to stay with me for a few days. We never talked about what I was going through. He didn’t ask questions. He didn’t call me out. He simply saw me.
Before he left, he handed me a movie and said he thought I should watch it.
The movie was Instinct. I had never seen it. I set it on my coffee table, where it sat for months — untouched. When I finally watched it, I remember thinking it was well done, thoughtfully acted… but I didn’t understand why he’d given it to me.
It wasn’t until years later, after I had begun my healing journey, that I understood exactly what he was trying to tell me.
In the film, a character struggling to find his place in the world writes a farewell letter that includes this line:
“Freedom is not just a dream. It’s there, on the other side of those fences we build all by ourselves.”
When that line finally landed, it hit me like a wave.
My friend wasn’t offering advice.
He was offering truth.
The Fences We Build to Feel Safe Often Keep Us Trapped
Every one of us builds fences.
We build them to protect ourselves from pain, disappointment, rejection, and loss. We tell ourselves they’re necessary — that they keep us safe.
But often, those fences don’t just keep people out.
They keep us in.
The longer we stay behind them, the louder the negative chatter in our minds becomes. Fear grows comfortable. Doubt feels familiar. And the idea of stepping beyond what we know — even if what we know is painful — starts to feel terrifying.
What we call a “safety zone” slowly becomes a cage.
And from inside it, we watch others live. Love. Risk. Grow.
While we tell ourselves stories about why we can’t.
The Illusion of Safety
Here’s the hard truth:
You are not actually safe behind emotional fences.
You’re not safe from your own thoughts.
You’re not safe from resentment.
You’re not safe from the slow erosion of joy.
Survival may feel like safety — but it isn’t freedom.
When we hide, we don’t stop pain from existing. We just stop ourselves from experiencing the fullness of life that exists alongside it.
And eventually, hiding costs more than risking ever could.
Tearing Down the Fence Doesn’t Have to Happen All at Once
The good news is this: you don’t have to demolish everything overnight.
If the idea of tearing down your fences sends anxiety through your body, start smaller. Tear a hole. Open a gate. Peek through the slats.
You don’t need a wrecking ball — you need willingness.
For me, though, I tore everything down at once.
It was terrifying.
I felt exposed. Raw. Vulnerable. Like I was standing naked in front of the world, waiting to be judged.
But something unexpected happened when the fences came down.
The world came in — because I invited it to.
And I learned something powerful: the world wasn’t nearly as dangerous as I believed. There were others like me. Others who were afraid. Others who were healing.
And when we stood together, we became stronger.
Braver.
More alive.
Freedom Comes From Discernment, Not Isolation
We often tell ourselves that walls keep us safe, but real safety comes from discernment.
From choosing the right people.
The right environments.
The right truths.
Freedom doesn’t mean recklessness. It means living authentically while making informed, conscious choices.
Yes, we’ve all been hurt before.
But that was the old us.
The SLAYER standing here today has learned.
Has grown.
Has wisdom.
We don’t move forward by closing our hearts — we move forward by opening them to what aligns with who we are now.
Boundaries Are Not Fences
This is where boundaries come in.
Boundaries are not walls meant to isolate you.
They are guidelines that protect your freedom.
They communicate what is and isn’t acceptable access to you.
For me, boundaries often sound like:
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Honesty is required
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My time is respected
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I’m spoken to with kindness
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Distance is allowed when something isn’t healthy
Boundaries shift depending on the relationship and the season — and that’s okay. We are constantly evolving, and clarity requires checking in with ourselves often.
When something doesn’t feel right, that’s information.
Ask yourself:
What do I need right now to feel safe and free?
Asking for What You Need Is an Act of Freedom
One of the most liberating things you can do is ask for what you want and need.
Not everyone will be able to give it to you — and that’s okay.
But as SLAYERS, we don’t hide our needs behind fences anymore. We speak them clearly. We honor ourselves openly.
And when we do that, walls become unnecessary.
Because freedom isn’t found in hiding.
It’s found in truth.
You Were Never Meant to Live Behind the Fence
Freedom lives outside the structures we built from fear.
It lives in courage.
In connection.
In choosing alignment over avoidance.
You are not your past.
You are not the fear that once protected you.
You are not meant to stay confined.
You are meant to run free.
SLAY Reflection
Let’s reflect, SLAYER:
S: Where in your life have you built fences instead of boundaries?
L: What fears are keeping you behind those walls?
A: What is one belief, habit, or relationship you could loosen your grip on to create more freedom?
Y: What would it look like to step outside the fence — even just a little?
Call to Action: Join the Conversation
I’d love to hear from you.
Where do you notice yourself hiding instead of living — and what would freedom look like for you right now?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.
And if you know someone who’s ready to step beyond their fences, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a nudge.
Slayer Say
Good morning SLAYER! We all make mistakes, and sometimes we hurt someone as a result of our actions, but it is how we take action after the fact that defines who we are. If and when it’s possible a simple ‘sorry’ isn’t always enough, it’s taking responsibility for the damage caused, and making amends to correct the behavior in the future or fixing the damage. We may think that we’ve done permanent damage, but miracles happen when we are open and honest about what we’ve done, the relationship may even strengthen where it had been weak.
New blog goes up Friday until then…SLAY on!
SLAY TALK LIVE Video
For you SLAYERS who weren’t able to join us for SLAY TALK LIVE tonight, here’s what you missed!
SLAY on!
When Sorry Isn’t Enough
OK, we’ve all said it when we didn’t really mean it, when it would make us look good, we wanted something, or just wanted someone to go away, but, sorry isn’t good enough, even if we do mean it, what we need to do is amend the behavior that caused the incident in the first place. All too often we throw out ‘I’m sorry” without giving it much thought, like putting a band-aid on something without treating the wound. What we really should be doing is striving to do better, and to amend what got us there in the first place.
This falls under a lot of the things I’ve already talked about, was it acceptance, did we not accept a person or situation, did we manipulate, lie, or steal, or is it our people picker, is our “people picker” still off and we chose to get involved with someone who is not honoring our authentic selves or the way we’re living our lives, did our expectations get us in trouble, did we have expectations around something or someone and felt let down, what were our intentions, were our intentions true, and did we get the facts to find out what the other person’s intentions where? All of these things, and more, can get us in sticky situations that may need to be corrected, but sorry isn’t enough.
Sorry to me is something you say when you bump into someone, or speak over them by mistake, not in situations that involve decisions we’ve made or situations we’ve chosen to participate in. If we’ve made a conscious decision to engage and we’ve messed up we need to make an amends, not just say sorry.
So, what is the difference? Making an amends to someone, or yourself, is making a commitment to do better in the future, to work on not getting yourself in that situation as you move forward, and to repair any damage you may have caused. Sounds heavy right? Well, here’s the deal, it may sound like heavy lifting but what it truly does is lighten the load. Making an amends to someone is really the gold medal of apologies because it not only says “I’m sorry” but it takes it one step further by saying, “and here’s what I plan to do about it.” An amend takes action! And, that’s what we’re all about SLAYERS, taking positive action in our lives. I have seen firsthand in my own life how, seemingly irreparable relationships, or situations become not only fixed, but stronger after an amends. It can be scary to stand in front of someone and say, “I messed up, I’m sorry my actions caused, x, y, or z, but, here’s what I’m going to do about it.” But, I’ve seen miracles happen. Now, in making this declaration at no point do we make excuses for our behavior, we, using the “just the facts Ma’am” approach, declare what our part was, and then what we feel we can do to make it better. We also don’t point fingers at anyone else, remember, we are in charge of our own lives, who we are, what we feel, and what we do, so it’s not anyone else’s fault but our own if we messed up, and we all mess up, it’s how we deal with it after that makes us SLAYERS, or slackers. It’s about keeping our side of the street clean. We’ve worked hard on our streets, we don’t want to run around throwing garbage all over it.
Now, there might be times that we cannot, or should not, make an amends, oh, now I got your attention now, those of you looking for a way out, but we should not make an amends if it will hurt or do damage to the other person or persons involved, there’s a special amends for those things, a living amends. In those cases you can make an amends to yourself and make the commitment to yourself to change that behavior, continue to do better while moving forward. We may also find ourselves where we are not able to make an amends to someone because they are unreachable or have passed on, again a living amends works in those circumstances too, and, what I’ve done in the past is written a letter to that person then burned it to let it go.
No one is perfect, but a SLAYER doesn’t back away when ownership of a mistake needs to be taken, we stand up, explain what was done, and we take responsibility to do it right the next time. SLAY on.
SLAY OF THE DAY: Write down the names and situations where you think you owe an amends. Is there a person or institution you own an amends to? Are you hesitant to do it? Why? Next the names you’ve written down, what can you do, moving forward, to better the situation that has you owing an amends? Make a commitment to watch out for those as you move forward and instead of repeating it, do the next right thing.
S – self L – love A – appreciate Y – you
Slayer Say
Good morning SLAYER! Learning to celebrate our flaws, loving them, and turning them into strengths makes us flawsome! We have the power to do that. Loving ourselves and embracing our uniqueness gets us on the road to flawsomeness, as we continue to accept and love ourselves we work towards finding a place where we stop judging ourselves and start to shine, and that, is true perfection!
New blog goes up Tuesday, until then…SLAY on!
I’m Not Perfect, I’m Flawsome!
The photo that accompanies this post is one I never thought I’d share.
I’ve had it since 2003, and aside from the person who took it, I showed it to only one other person for years. Before I stepped onto this journey, there was no way I would have let anyone see it. In truth, it’s taken me more than a decade of healing to feel ready to share it at all.
That photo isn’t a picture of someone who had it together.
It isn’t the version of me I worked so hard to present to the world.
It’s a picture of a woman in pain.
In fear.
Holding on by a thread.
I look at her now and I recognize her immediately. She’s still inside me. But today, I feel compassion for her instead of shame. I understand what she was carrying. I understand why she was afraid. And I appreciate her—because she didn’t stay there.
She kept going.
And that’s what made her flawsome.
What Flawsome Really Means to Me
Flawsome isn’t pretending we don’t have flaws.
It’s not polishing them up or hiding them better.
Flawsome is learning to celebrate them.
It’s letting go of the impossible standard of perfection and choosing something real instead. Because perfection doesn’t exist—and chasing it only keeps us stuck in self-judgment.
Flawsome is turning the parts of yourself you once hated into sources of strength. It’s living authentically, loving yourself fully, and recognizing that who you are—right now—is already worthy.
Perfection isn’t attainable.
But flawsomeness is.
How I Learned to Become Flawsome
This didn’t happen overnight.
It came from learning who I actually am, not who I thought I needed to be. From loving myself unconditionally—even the parts I wanted to reject. From letting my freak flag fly instead of trying to tuck it away.
And yes, it came from forgiveness. Again.
Forgiving myself for the choices I made when I didn’t know better.
Forgiving myself for the years I spent believing I was unlovable.
Forgiving myself for thinking my flaws made me less-than.
Letting go of that judgment freed me in ways I never expected.
Loving Yourself Is the Work
I had to learn to look at myself with love—the same love I so easily offered to others.
To stop living in the past, replaying mistakes that couldn’t be undone.
To stop living in the future, chasing a version of myself I thought I had to become.
The only place healing actually happens is now.
I learned to focus on what I’m good at. To celebrate my strengths instead of obsessing over what I thought was broken. To build on my talents and share them with others.
One of the most powerful parts of being flawsome is letting other people see it. When we own who we are, we give others permission to do the same.
The Woman in That Photo Didn’t Stay There
There’s nothing flawsome about the woman in that photo—except this:
She didn’t give up.
With every bit of strength she had, she fought for herself. She started a journey toward healing and self-love. It wasn’t pretty. It wasn’t fast. And yes, she put herself through hell for years after that picture was taken.
But she got there.
And now, that woman is me—writing these words.
That’s flawsome.
If You’re Struggling Right Now
If you’re feeling lost, empty, beaten down, or hopeless—please hear this:
Today can be the first day of the rest of your life.
You don’t need to have it all figured out. You just need to decide that you’re worth fighting for. The journey won’t be easy, but I promise you—it’s worth every step.
And you don’t walk it alone.
You have all of us SLAYERS walking beside you.
So go out there today and be flawsome.
SLAY Reflection
Let’s reflect, SLAYER:
S: What parts of yourself have you labeled as flaws?
L: How have those “flaws” actually shaped your strength or resilience?
A: What would change if you looked at yourself with compassion instead of judgment?
Y: How can you begin turning what you’ve judged into something flawsome?
Make a commitment today to stop judging yourself. When something comes up that you usually criticize, pause. Smile. Ask yourself how you can respond with love instead.
You’re learning.
Be kind to yourself on the way to SLAYDOM.
And never forget—you are flawsome.
Slayer Say
Good Morning SLAYER! When our intentions are in the right place, and we know what other people’s intentions are, we are less likely to cause or run into problems because of miscommunication or lack thereof. Make sure you let your intentions be known and don’t be afraid to ask what someone else’s are. Everyone has their own reasons for getting involved and when you know the facts, you are safe.
New blog goes up Sunday…until then, SLAY on!
