mindset shift

Slay Say

We all have goals that call us forward—
dreams, changes, next chapters that ask more of us
than staying where we feel safe.

But it’s impossible to move into what’s next
while giving your energy to what’s already behind you.
You can’t grow while tending to the comfort of what’s familiar.
You can’t step into opportunity while replaying what held you back.

Progress doesn’t happen in the places where you stay small.
It happens in the stretch—
in the risks you take,
in the habits you break,
in the willingness to do the thing you’ve avoided because it feels big.

Your goals aren’t waiting for you to perfect your past.
They’re waiting for you to stop living in it.

This is your reminder:
You move forward the moment you choose growth over comfort.

Slay on!

Slay Say

You discover who you are the moment you stop auditioning for acceptance.

We learn to shape-shift early.
To fit the room.
To earn approval.
To become what makes others comfortable—even if it costs us pieces of ourselves.

But there comes a moment when the performance gets too heavy.
When pretending feels louder than truth.
When the mask you’ve been holding starts to slip…
and underneath it is the version of you that’s been waiting for air.

Real identity isn’t found in perfection or presentation.
It’s found in the quiet courage to show up as yourself—without shrinking, without apologizing, without molding your worth around someone else’s gaze.

Stepping out of the role others expect isn’t rebellion.
It’s alignment.
It’s freedom.
It’s the first step toward a life that finally fits.

This is your reminder:
You don’t need to audition for a role that was already yours.

Slay on!

You Can Forgive Someone Without Giving Them Access to You

Forgiveness is freedom, not a front-row pass

There’s a moment in healing that feels like a crossroads.
You’ve done the work.
You’ve cried the tears.
You’ve processed the pain.
And you finally arrive at forgiveness — not to excuse what was done, but to release what it did to you.

But then comes the question that catches so many of us off guard:

Does forgiving someone mean they get to come back?

For years, I thought the answer was yes.

I believed forgiveness meant reconciliation.
I believed healing meant returning to the way things were.
I believed I had to reopen the door simply because I had released the hurt.

But with time, experience, heartbreak, boundary-setting, and a few painfully earned lessons, I learned the truth:

You can forgive someone and still deny them access to you.
Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself.
Access is a privilege they have to earn.

Those two things are not the same.

Forgiveness Isn’t a Free Pass

Forgiveness is often misunderstood. Many people think it means:

  • “We’re good now.”
  • “It wasn’t that bad.”
  • “Let’s forget it happened.”
  • “The relationship should go back to normal.”

But forgiveness does not rewrite history. It does not minimize harm. It does not pretend you weren’t hurt.

Forgiveness simply means:
“I’m releasing the emotional hold this has on me.”

It’s internal.
It’s personal.
It’s sacred.

Forgiveness is about you finding peace — not about making someone else comfortable.

You can forgive someone and still say:

  • “I no longer trust you.”
  • “Your behavior hasn’t changed.”
  • “My boundaries matter.”
  • “This relationship is not safe for me.”
  • “I choose to love myself enough to step away.”

And every one of those statements can exist perfectly alongside forgiveness.

Access Requires Accountability

Here’s the part most people don’t understand:

Forgiveness is unconditional.
Access is not.

Access requires:

  • Changed behavior
  • Accountability
  • Consistency
  • Respect
  • Emotional safety
  • Mutual effort

If someone wants a place in your life, their actions should reflect it.
Their words should align with their behavior.
Their presence should feel safe, not draining.
Their energy should add, not take.

You don’t deny access out of spite.
You deny access because your peace is non-negotiable.

It is not punishment.
It is protection.

People who truly care about you will understand that.
People who don’t will call it “overreacting” or “holding a grudge,” simply because they no longer benefit from your openness.

Forgiveness Without Reconciliation Is Still Forgiveness

A lot of people grew up being taught that forgiveness meant you had to:

  • rebuild relationships
  • pretend nothing happened
  • stay connected
  • be endlessly available

But that version of forgiveness keeps you trapped.
It keeps you small.
It keeps you in cycles of harm.

Forgiveness without reconciliation is still forgiveness.
You can release resentment without reopening the door.
You can wish someone well from a distance.
You can send them love and keep them out of your life.

There is power in that duality:

“I forgive you.
And you still don’t get access to me.”

Both can be true.
Both can be healthy.
Both can be healing.

Protecting Your Peace Is an Act of Self-Respect

There comes a point where you stop asking:

“Do they deserve another chance?”

And start asking:

“Does this support my peace, my growth, and my well-being?”

Sometimes the answer is yes.
Sometimes it’s no.
Sometimes it’s “not right now.”

And sometimes it’s “never again.”

Choosing distance is not bitterness.
It’s clarity.
It’s self-respect.
It’s honoring the version of you who finally learned what they deserve.

There is nothing unkind about protecting your emotional, mental, or physical safety.
There is nothing cruel about refusing to reenter the same cycle.
There is nothing wrong with outgrowing people who continue to harm you — even if you love them.

Protecting your peace is not a betrayal of love —
it’s a commitment to yourself.

Rebuilding Is a Choice, Not an Obligation

Some people will change.
Some people will grow.
Some people will show up differently.

And if that happens — and if you want to rebuild — that choice is yours.

But rebuilding should never come from guilt.
Or pressure.
Or obligation.
Or fear of what other people will think.

A relationship can only be rebuilt on:

  • truth
  • accountability
  • honesty
  • change
  • mutual respect
  • time
  • consistency

Not empty promises or short-term effort.

You decide what access looks like.
You decide what level of connection you’re open to.
You decide whether the door is closed, cracked, or locked.

You don’t owe anyone an explanation.
Your healing is not a group decision.

Forgiveness Sets You Free — Not Them

One of the most liberating things you’ll ever learn is this:

Forgiveness is not for them.
It’s for you.

It frees your mind.
It clears your heart.
It releases the emotional weight tethering you to the past.

But it does not require:

  • returning
  • reconciling
  • reconnecting
  • reopening
  • reengaging

Your healing does not depend on the relationship surviving.
Some chapters end so you can reclaim your peace.
Some endings are the closure you’ve been searching for.
Some boundaries are the doorway to your freedom.

Allowing someone access again is an entirely separate choice — one they must earn, not one automatically granted because you chose your own healing.

SLAY Reflection

S — Sit With Your Truth

What relationship in your life have you maintained out of obligation rather than genuine safety or connection?

L — Look at the Pattern

Have you confused forgiveness with permission in the past? What did that lead to?

A — Align With Your Values

What boundaries need to be honored for you to feel emotionally safe again?

Y — Yield to Growth

How can you release the hurt while still protecting your peace moving forward?

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
When have you forgiven someone but still chosen distance — and how did that decision support your healing?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s working on releasing hurt without reopening old wounds, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a nudge.

Slay Say

Unearth Your Thriving Self

There’s a version of you that doesn’t live in reaction, exhaustion, or fear.
It’s the version that breathes easier, moves with intention, and believes they deserve peace.

But to meet that version, you have to release the one that’s just getting by. The one that clings to old patterns, familiar chaos, and constant survival mode.

Thriving isn’t something you earn—it’s who you uncover when you stop settling for struggle as your normal.

This is your reminder that your next level of peace, purpose, and power is already within you—waiting to rise.

Slay On!

Your Brain Isn’t Broken, It’s Searching for Safety

There’s a moment in healing when you realize that what you’ve been calling “broken” was really protective.
Those looping thoughts, the anxious spirals, the what-ifs that replay like a broken record — they’re not your brain failing you. They’re your brain trying to keep you safe.

It’s called pattern completion, and it’s one of the ways your mind tries to make sense of the world.
When your brain experiences something painful, confusing, or traumatic, it looks for patterns — familiar situations, similar people, recognizable emotions — and tries to predict what comes next. It’s a survival mechanism, not a flaw.

But survival mode isn’t meant to be a permanent address.

Your Brain Is Trying to Protect You, Not Punish You

When you’re caught in a mental loop — replaying a conversation, worrying about what might happen, or assuming the worst — it’s your brain saying, “I’ve been here before. I know what this felt like last time, so I’ll prepare for it again.”

That’s pattern completion.
It’s your nervous system scanning for danger based on old data.

But here’s the truth: you’re not living that old story anymore.

The brain doesn’t know the difference between memory and reality until you show it.
Every time you ground yourself in the present, take a deep breath, or remind yourself “I’m safe now,” you’re re-educating your mind. You’re teaching it that not every silence means rejection, not every argument means abandonment, not every change means chaos.

You’re not broken — you’re healing an overworked safety system.

Familiar Isn’t Always Safe

One of the hardest truths to accept is that your brain equates familiar with safe, even when familiar hurt you.

That’s why we sometimes repeat relationships that feel eerily similar to the ones that wounded us.
Why we overwork ourselves the way we saw others do.
Why we shrink in moments that ask us to rise.

Your brain is chasing comfort, not happiness.
It’s doing what it knows.
But healing begins when you start showing it something new — when you remind it that safety can look like calm, silence, boundaries, and peace.

At first, that newness will feel uncomfortable. Your brain may resist. It’s not because you’re doing something wrong — it’s because you’re doing something different. And different can feel like danger when you’ve lived in survival mode for too long.

Teach Your Brain a New Way to Be Safe

Rewiring those patterns takes intention, but it’s possible.

Here’s how to start:

  • Notice the loop. When your thoughts start spiraling, pause. Label it. “This is my brain trying to complete an old pattern.”
  • Ground yourself in the present. Look around. Name five things you see, four you can touch, three you can hear. Tell yourself, “This is now, not then.”
  • Reassure your nervous system. Speak gently to yourself. “I’m safe. I don’t need to fight, flee, or freeze right now.”
  • Replace fear with truth. Ask, “What is real in this moment?” That question alone can shift everything.

Over time, your brain learns.
It starts to trust that you’re no longer in danger — that you’re the safe place now.

And that’s when healing becomes your new pattern.

You’re the Safety You’ve Been Searching For

The next time your mind replays an old fear, remember this:
You’re not back there. You’re right here.
You’ve survived everything that tried to break you — and now, you get to teach your brain what safety truly feels like.

Because your brain isn’t broken. It’s learning a new language — one called peace.

SLAY Reflection

  1. What thought patterns or worries tend to repeat for you?
  2. When you feel triggered, can you pause and remind yourself, “I’m safe now”?
  3. How can you show your brain a new version of safety today?
  4. What familiar behaviors are you ready to release, even if they once made you feel “safe”?
  5. How can you speak to yourself with compassion when old fears resurface?

S – Stop labeling your survival instincts as flaws
L – Learn to identify when your mind is replaying old fears
A – Align your thoughts with the truth of the present moment
Y – Yield to peace; you’re safe now

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
What’s one pattern your brain keeps replaying — and how are you learning to rewrite it?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s been hard on themselves for how they think or feel, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a reminder: we’re not broken — we’re healing.

Pressure Is a Privilege

There’s a saying I’ve always loved: pressure is a privilege.

At first, it can sound like something only the ultra-successful would say—like a line meant for athletes, CEOs, or overachievers. But the truth is, pressure exists wherever there’s potential.

Pressure means someone believes in you.
Pressure means you’ve earned responsibility.
Pressure means you’ve shown you can handle something worth doing.

It’s not punishment—it’s purpose in disguise.

The Weight of Expectation

When life starts demanding more of us, our instinct is often to push back. We say things like:

  • “Why is this so hard?”
  • “Why does everyone expect me to have it all together?”
  • “Can’t I just have one easy day?”

But those expectations—those moments that make us sweat and doubt and question—are actually markers of growth.

If no one expected anything of you, it would mean no one believed in your ability to rise. Pressure is often the shadow side of opportunity.

We tend to see only the strain, but pressure exists because something inside you is ready to expand.

The next chapter of your life is pressing on the walls of your comfort zone, asking to be born.

From Fear to Fuel

Pressure can crush you if you let it. But it can also create diamonds.

It all depends on how you see it.

When you frame pressure as a burden, it feels heavy, suffocating, endless. But when you frame it as privilege—as proof that something meaningful is unfolding—you stop resisting and start responding.

Think of it this way:

  • Pressure is proof that you’re trusted.
  • Pressure is proof that you’re capable.
  • Pressure is proof that you’re in the game.

When the moment feels too big, remember: you wouldn’t be under this much pressure if you weren’t meant to handle it.

You’ve already proven something powerful just by being here.

Perfection vs. Purpose

Many of us crumble under pressure not because we’re incapable—but because we confuse pressure with perfection.

We think pressure means we can’t fail. That we must perform flawlessly. That we’re being watched and judged.

But pressure isn’t about being perfect—it’s about being present.

The people who thrive under pressure aren’t superhuman. They’ve just learned how to focus on progress over perfection.

When you stop chasing flawless and start chasing faithful, something shifts. You stop trying to prove and start showing up.

That’s where true resilience is built—not in trying to please everyone, but in doing your best with what’s in front of you, even when it’s hard.

Pressure Builds Strength

The first time you lift a weight, it feels impossible. Your muscles shake. Your body resists. But over time, that same pressure builds strength.

Emotional pressure works the same way.

Every time you stand in discomfort—face the meeting, have the hard conversation, take the next step when you’re terrified—you grow.

Each moment of pressure becomes a training ground for your next level.

So instead of asking “Why is this happening to me?”, start asking “What is this building in me?”

Because if you let it, pressure will make you powerful.

Reframing the Privilege

Think about this: if no one ever challenged you, you’d never know how capable you are.

Pressure doesn’t show up when you’re weak—it arrives when you’re strong enough to handle it.

That’s why it’s a privilege.

Pressure says, “You’ve proven you can do hard things.”
It says, “You’ve earned the right to grow.”
It says, “You matter enough for this to matter.”

And when you start to see pressure that way, something beautiful happens—you stop fearing it. You start welcoming it. You realize that pressure isn’t trying to destroy you; it’s trying to develop you.

That’s the difference between breaking down and breaking through.

How to Handle Pressure with Grace

Here are a few ways to turn pressure into power:

  1. Pause Before You React
    When pressure hits, don’t spiral. Breathe. Re-center. Respond from clarity, not panic.
  2. Shift Your Perspective
    Ask: “What is this moment trying to teach me?” Instead of resisting, get curious.
  3. Release Perfection
    You don’t need to ace every test. You just need to show up—consistently, courageously, honestly.
  4. Find Gratitude in Growth
    Pressure means you’re trusted with something meaningful. That’s worth being grateful for.
  5. Remember: You’ve Done Hard Things Before
    You’ve survived every pressure moment that came before this one. This, too, will become proof of your strength.

When Pressure Feels Like Too Much

There will be days when you’ll want to quit—when pressure doesn’t feel like privilege at all.

On those days, it’s okay to step back. Rest. Breathe. Ask for help. Privilege doesn’t mean perfection; it means participation. You’re allowed to pause without giving up.

Just don’t confuse taking a break with backing down. Even resting is part of rising.

You’re building endurance, not just achievement. You’re learning to carry the weight without losing yourself underneath it.

SLAY Reflection

  1. How do you usually react when you feel pressure?
  2. What opportunities in your life right now are disguised as pressure?
  3. What story do you tell yourself when expectations rise?
  4. How might seeing pressure as privilege change how you show up?
  5. What’s one way you can turn current pressure into personal power?

S – Stop seeing pressure as punishment
L – Let it teach you instead of crush you
A – Align your energy with purpose, not perfection
Y – Yield to growth—pressure is proof you’re evolving

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
How has pressure shaped you into who you are today?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone feeling overwhelmed by the weight of expectations, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a reminder that the pressure we feel is the privilege of becoming more.

Tell Your Brain the Kind of Day You’re Going to Have

Have you ever noticed how your mornings set the tone for everything that follows? The moment you wake up, before your feet even hit the floor, your brain is already scanning for cues about what kind of day it’s going to be. And here’s the truth: what you tell your brain, your brain will look for.

That means if you wake up thinking, Ugh, this is going to be a hard day, your brain will search for every piece of evidence to confirm it. If you start the day with, I’m choosing peace today, your brain will find moments to validate that choice.

Your mindset is like a compass—point it in one direction, and your day will naturally start aligning with it. The question is, are you pointing it toward chaos or calm? Toward frustration or gratitude? Toward fear or courage?

Your Brain Believes What You Feed It

Here’s what’s fascinating: our brains are designed with something called the reticular activating system (RAS). It acts like a filter, deciding what gets your attention. When you tell your brain to focus on something—whether consciously or unconsciously—it scans your environment to find it.

Think of it like when you buy a new car, and suddenly you start seeing that same make and model everywhere. It’s not that the cars weren’t there before—it’s that your brain is now wired to notice them.

Your thoughts work the same way.

If you tell yourself, This meeting is going to be a disaster, your brain will notice every sigh, every side-eye, and every awkward silence. If you tell yourself, I can handle this with grace, your brain will pick up on the support, the nods, the opportunities to speak with confidence.

This is why starting your day with intentional thoughts is so powerful. Your brain is always listening.

The Power of Morning Scripts

The way you script your morning can shift everything. Here are some examples:

  • Instead of: Today’s going to be so stressful.
    Try: Today I’m choosing peace, no matter what comes my way.
  • Instead of: I’m so tired, this day is going to drag.
    Try: I have enough energy to handle what matters most today.
  • Instead of: Nobody respects me at work.
    Try: I respect myself, and I show up in a way that earns respect.

These aren’t empty affirmations. They are instructions for your brain. And when your brain has instructions, it follows them.

Frustration, Stress, and the Choice We Overlook

Life is going to throw things at you—that’s not optional. Someone cuts you off in traffic, a coworker sends a passive-aggressive email, your plans get derailed.

But here’s the key: those external things don’t decide the quality of your day. You do.

The outside world can invite you to be upset, but you are the one who accepts or declines that invitation.

When you catch yourself spiraling into negativity, pause and ask:
What did I just tell my brain about this moment? Did I tell it to look for the worst, or did I give it something else to notice?

It’s in those pauses that power lives.

Rewiring Takes Practice

If you’ve spent years waking up dreading the day or rehearsing worst-case scenarios, it’s going to take practice to redirect that thought pattern. And that’s okay.

Every time you catch yourself choosing the old script—This is going to be awful—and instead replace it with a new one—I’ve handled worse, and I will handle this too—you are literally rewiring your brain.

The more you do it, the easier it gets. Eventually, your default setting changes. Instead of your brain scanning for stress, it starts scanning for strength. Instead of looking for failure, it starts looking for possibility.

Tell Your Brain Where to Go

Think of your brain like a GPS. If you program it with the wrong address, you’ll end up somewhere you don’t want to be. But when you give it the right directions, it will get you closer to where you want to go.

So before you argue with someone, before you step into that meeting, before you check your email—set the address.

Tell your brain:

  • I’m going to stay calm.
  • I’m going to choose compassion.
  • I’m going to focus on solutions, not problems.

And watch how your day reroutes to align with it.

SLAY Reflection

  1. What’s the first thought you usually have when you wake up? Does it serve you or sabotage you?
  2. How often do you give your brain negative instructions without realizing it?
  3. What would it feel like to intentionally start your day with a thought that empowers you?
  4. When was the last time you caught yourself spiraling, and what did you do to redirect it?
  5. What’s one phrase you can start telling yourself tomorrow morning to shift your entire day?

S – Script your mornings with intentional thoughts
L – Let your brain look for evidence that supports your peace
A – Align your mindset with the day you want to create
Y – Yield to positivity and refuse to accept the invitation to chaos

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
What’s the phrase you tell yourself that shifts the entire direction of your day?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s stuck in negative loops, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a reminder that our brains believe what we tell them.

Frustration Is an Invitation You Don’t Have to Accept

We all know the feeling—traffic that doesn’t move, a conversation that goes sideways, a plan that unravels in real time. Frustration builds, and before you know it, you’re simmering in anger, irritation, or resentment.

But here’s the truth that changed everything for me: frustration is always self-induced.

The outside world can invite us to be upset, yes—but we are the ones who accept the invitation.

When I first heard this idea, I bristled. Surely the rude driver, the unfair boss, the inattentive friend—they were the source of my frustration. But as I dug deeper, I realized the common denominator in every moment of anger was me. I was the one choosing to hold onto the irritation, the one letting it hijack my energy, the one letting the external world dictate my internal peace.

And that was the moment I understood: I can’t always control what happens, but I can always control whether or not I RSVP to frustration’s invitation.

The Hidden Cost of Accepting the Invitation

Frustration feels powerful in the moment. It gives us something to cling to, a sense of being “right,” or even righteous. But that power is fleeting, and the cost is high.

Every time we accept frustration’s invitation, we:

  • Drain our energy on things that don’t serve us.
  • Poison our mood, often for hours or days after the fact.
  • Damage relationships by reacting instead of responding.
  • Distract ourselves from solutions by obsessing over problems.

When I look back at my own life, I see how many days I lost this way—days spent stewing instead of living, days consumed by anger that did nothing but make me miserable. And all of it was preventable.

The truth? Frustration doesn’t come from what happened. It comes from the story we tell ourselves about what happened.

Pause Before You RSVP

The good news is that frustration is optional. Just because you’re invited doesn’t mean you have to attend.

Here’s what I practice today:

  1. Notice the rise. That heat in my chest, that quickening of my thoughts—I know frustration is knocking.
  2. Ask: Is this worth my peace? Nine times out of ten, the answer is no.
  3. Choose my response. Instead of spiraling, I take a breath. Sometimes I literally step away. Sometimes I laugh at how small the trigger really is. Sometimes I pray.
  4. Reframe. Instead of “Why is this happening to me?” I ask, “What is this showing me?” That shift turns frustration into information.

When I don’t RSVP to the invitation, I keep my power. I keep my peace. And I remember: the world doesn’t get to run my emotions—I do.

Frustration Reveals What We Value

Here’s the part most people miss: frustration isn’t all bad. It’s actually a teacher, if we’re willing to listen.

Frustration shows us what matters to us, what we expect, what boundaries may need adjusting. For example:

  • If traffic frustrates me, maybe it’s not about the cars—it’s about my lack of preparation or my need for control.
  • If someone interrupts me and I feel rage, maybe it’s pointing me to a wound around not feeling heard.
  • If I’m furious that a plan changed, maybe it’s about my deeper need for certainty and security.

When I stop blaming the outside world and start looking inward, frustration becomes less of a punishment and more of a flashlight.

It shines a light on the gap between my expectations and reality—and that’s where my work begins.

Choosing Peace Over Frustration

It’s not about denying your feelings. It’s about remembering that frustration is optional. You always have another choice:

  • You can let go. Not everything deserves a reaction.
  • You can laugh. Humor disarms frustration in a heartbeat.
  • You can learn. Ask what this moment is teaching you.
  • You can move on. Protect your energy by refusing to give it away.

When I practice this, I notice how much lighter my days feel. I have more energy for the things that actually matter. And maybe most importantly, I stop letting other people’s behavior write the story of my day.

Because at the end of the day, frustration is a story. And you get to decide whether or not you keep telling it.

Frustration Will Knock Again—Be Ready

Don’t get me wrong—I still get frustrated. I’m human. But now, instead of automatically reacting, I pause and ask myself:

Am I about to accept an invitation to frustration? Or am I going to choose peace instead?

That moment of awareness has changed my life. It’s not always easy, but it’s always worth it.

Frustration may knock, but peace is the one I let in.

SLAY Reflection

  1. What situations frustrate you most often?
  2. What expectations lie beneath that frustration?
  3. Can you trace your frustration back to an old story, wound, or belief?
  4. How does your day feel different when you choose not to engage with frustration?
  5. What’s one way you can practice pausing before accepting frustration’s “invitation” this week?

S – Stop and notice when frustration rises
L – Let go of the need to control what you can’t
A – Align your response with peace, not anger
Y – Yield to wisdom, not to the story frustration tells

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
What’s one frustration you’ve learned to stop accepting—and how did it free you?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who feels constantly hijacked by frustration, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a reminder that peace is always a choice.

Learning to Love the Thing You Wish Hadn’t Happened

There are moments in life that split time in two.

There’s before it happened.
And there’s after it happened.

And sometimes, that “it” is something you would give anything to erase. A betrayal. A loss. A mistake. A failure. Something that shook you so deeply that, even years later, you still catch yourself saying, “If only that had never happened…”

I’ve been there. More than once.

For a long time, I believed the only way to be truly happy again was to go back—back to the way things were before the pain, before the fallout, before the day that changed everything. But the truth is, there is no going back. There’s only forward. And learning to move forward doesn’t mean pretending it didn’t hurt, or even pretending you’re glad it happened.

It means learning to love what it taught you.

It means finding peace in the fact that this unwanted thing—this thing you thought would break you—has also shaped you into the version of yourself you are now.

The Lie We Tell Ourselves About “If Only”

When something painful happens, our minds get stuck in loops. We replay conversations. We imagine different choices. We rewrite endings that never came.

It’s a way of bargaining with reality: If only it hadn’t happened, I’d be happier. If only it hadn’t happened, I’d be whole.

But here’s the truth no one wants to admit—those loops keep us chained to the very thing we want freedom from. Every time we run through the “if only” scenario, we hand over our present to a past we cannot change.

And if we’re not careful, we start defining ourselves by the wound instead of the healing.

What It Really Means to Love the Thing You Wish Hadn’t Happened

Loving what you wish hadn’t happened doesn’t mean excusing it, approving of it, or romanticizing pain. It’s not toxic positivity, and it’s not saying, “Everything happens for a reason” as a way to shut down your feelings.

It’s about recognizing that you did survive it. That it’s part of your story. And that by accepting it instead of resisting it, you can take back your power.

When you love what you wish hadn’t happened, you’re saying:

  • “I see what this taught me, even if I never wanted the lesson.”
  • “I won’t let this moment define my future in a way that keeps me small.”
  • “I can carry this with me without letting it weigh me down.”

That shift—acceptance over resistance—is where freedom begins.

Turning Pain Into Purpose

If I look back at my own life, the moments I once wished away have given me some of my greatest strengths.

The heartbreak that shattered me? It taught me how to listen to my intuition.

The loss that felt unbearable? It taught me to love harder and to cherish the present.

The mistake I swore I’d never recover from? It humbled me, made me more compassionate, and connected me to people I never would have met otherwise.

When you learn to love what you wish hadn’t happened, you’re essentially mining your pain for gold. You’re pulling the wisdom from the rubble. You’re saying, “If I have to carry this, I will make sure it makes me stronger.”

Choosing to See the Gift

This is the hardest part—seeing the gift in the thing you never wanted.

Sometimes the gift isn’t obvious. It’s not wrapped neatly with a bow. It might take years before you see how something awful set the stage for something better.

But I believe this: Every wound has the potential to be the very thing that builds your wings.

That doesn’t happen automatically. It happens when you choose to look for the lessons. When you decide that your story will not end in tragedy, but in transformation.

You Don’t Have to Like It to Learn From It

There’s a misconception that acceptance means approval. It doesn’t. You can still hate what happened. You can still grieve it, still wish it had been different.

Acceptance is simply saying, “It happened. I can’t change that. But I can choose how I live with it.”

And sometimes, “living with it” means integrating it into your story in a way that honors your growth instead of your grief.

From Scar to Strength

Your pain is not who you are.

It’s part of your story, but it’s not your identity. The thing you wish hadn’t happened might always sting a little, but with time, the sting fades, and the scar becomes proof—not of what hurt you, but of what couldn’t break you.

When you reach the point where you can love that scar, when you can look at it and think, That’s where I grew the most, you’ve taken back what was stolen from you.

That’s when the thing you once wished away becomes the thing that shaped you into the person you were always meant to be.

SLAY Reflection

  1. What’s one event in your life you still wish had never happened?
  2. How has holding onto resistance kept you tied to it?
  3. What’s one strength, lesson, or relationship you have today because of it?
  4. How would your life look if you could accept it fully?
  5. What’s one small step you can take this week toward making peace with it?

S – Stop replaying the “if only” loop
L – Look for the lessons, even if they’re small
A – Accept that it’s part of your story, not all of it
Y – Yield to the growth it’s given you

Call to Action: Join the Conversation

I’d love to hear from you.
What’s one thing you wish had never happened—and how has it unexpectedly shaped you for the better?
Share your story in the comments. Let’s cheer each other on.

And if you know someone who’s stuck wishing they could erase the past, send this to them.
Sometimes, all we need is a nudge.

Slay Say

TRUST THE STRENGTH YOU’RE BUILDING

Comfort is fleeting.
It’s easy to map out your life for the good days, the smooth seasons, the times when everything flows.

But those aren’t the days that test the strength of your foundation.

True growth happens when you shape your future with resilience in mind—when you build a life that can hold you steady through the storms, not just the sunshine.

This is your reminder: The stronger you become in the hard moments, the more unshakable your path forward will be.

SLAY on!