There have been moments my life, when maybe I had been putting myself in a situation I shouldn’t have been in, or had stayed too long in a place I should have long left, that will come to a head and I need to make a permanent decision in an instant moment. Those moments don’t seem too instant usually though because I typically know that they will come one day, because where I am is not where I am meant to be. There are times though, when things do pop up unexpectedly and a decision has to be made for our own health and safety. When those moments come up, if we don’t know ourselves, and what’s best for us, we could easily make the wrong decisions in those instant moments out of panic our uncertainty of what to do next.
When I was in my disease that moment came, it came on a night that was like any other night, but it wasn’t, for some reason, on that night, I got really scared, and I knew that I was at a crossroads, suddenly, and that if I didn’t make the right decision, my life could be over. Both of my choices were permanent decisions, just one was the right choice, the choice I did make, and the other was the path I had been on which would only lead to one ultimate end, my end. I don’t know why, on that particular night, I realized I had to make a choice in that moment, because I didn’t even really know what the solution to it was, but I instinctively knew that I had to surrender to the way I had to been living and let go of the belief that I had things under control and knew better. And maybe that was the only sound decision I was capable of making with the knowledge I had, that I didn’t have it under control and all I could do was surrender and ask for help. That act set forth the journey I am still on today. And, the path I plan to stay on.
We are presented with many crossroads in our lifetime. Those moments when we can choose what path to take, and most of the time we know which path we should be on, we don’t always take it, but we usually know the right way, or at least, the first step to get us on that right path. Much of having the right information when those instant moments arise is knowing ourselves, know who we are, what we want, and having a connection to something bigger than ourselves to help guide us to the place we’re meant to be. I didn’t know myself when I made that permanent decision that night, but something inside of me knew what the next right step was, to call and ask for help.
If you find yourself in a place you shouldn’t be in, or can’t stay in, or know is not the best place for you, think about what you can do to get out, look for those opportunities, people, moments when there may be some guidance coming through that is showing you where to go. Take the time to get to know yourself, to learn to love yourself and believe that you deserve better than what you have, or where you are, if that does not serve you. Seek out those people, those places, that allows you to be your best you, that celebrates your spirit, and who you are. And know, when those instant moments come up where you have to make a permanent decision that you have the information you need to make the right decision, a decision that could lead you to your destiny, of where you’re meant to be if you just take that chance. SLAY on!
SLAY OF THE DAY: Have there been times in your life that you’ve had to make a permanent decision in an instant moment? List one. What was the result? Where you prepared for it? Why had you left something so long that you were forced to make a decision instantly? Did you know prior to that moment that that same decisions should have been made? Looking back, where there signs that that instant moment was coming? What can you do differently today to make better decisions so you’re not forced to make major decisions instantly? Take a look at your life SLAYER, look at where you are, who you’re with, and if you are where you are supposed to be, if you’re not, look for those moments to make some permanent decisions to get your on the right path and on the road to making your dreams a reality.
S – self L – love A – appreciate Y – you