This is one that keeps me working every day. I have come a long way over the last 12 plus years, but that doesn’t mean I can rest on my laurels and let things slide. Those negative voices only stay at bay if I am working each day to live in the light. The moment I start to let the shadows in, those voices start to get louder. I fight each day for the girl who was lost, who thought of herself as less-than, who nearly slipped away, I remember her, who she was, what she did, and how she felt, and I remind myself that she is still in me, and I need to work each day to keep her safe.
When we hit a bottom and we find the courage to reach out for help, we are typically desperate enough that we are willing to do anything, to work hard, because we literally may be fighting for our lives, I definitely was. We roll up our sleeves and get to work, and as we start to notice things getting better, we keep working, until we see that things may be so good, we have left that old us far behind, and that’s when we may be the most vulnerable, because we may sit back and let things coast for a while, thinking we’re feeling great and doing so much better than we were, and we are, but that gas we have in our tank, or that charge, will get used up, and if we stop filling it, or charging it, we will run on empty, and we can only do that for so long before we come to a halt. It’s important to keep working to give ourselves the fuel we need to keep moving forward, to keep getting better, and to keep ourselves clean.
And, I know, you might be thinking, do I have to work for myself and my own well-being every single day? Yes, you do. But, you may work harder on certain days than others, and if you start to listen to yourself, those thoughts, you can gauge when you need to ramp it up and when you can ease off a bit, but, be truthful with yourself, be honest about where you are, and how your state of mind truly is. When we let things slip we put ourselves in danger, in danger of falling back to where we were, or worse, even further back. Because as we get better, as we gather more tools to live a healthier, more productive life, our negative bullshit committee is also learning the same things, and figuring out how to navigate around them, so when we back off of our own self-care, that’s when they get to work on chipping away at everything we’ve been building for ourselves.
Just like we can’t stay clean on yesterday’s shower, we can’t get better on yesterday’s work, sure it may help us, and if we’ve laid down a solid foundation we can use that to keep ourselves steady, but only for so long, it’s about doing the right things each day to move forward, to stay in the light, to live as our own authentic selves, to continue to work for the most important person we know, us. Get your SLAY hustle on each day, and fight the good fight.
SLAY OF THE DAY: Do you find that when you’re feeling good, you tend to work less for your own well-being? Do you let things slide so much that you may be in danger of reverting back to old habits, and your old way of life? What are the signs that you are slipping? What can you do to get yourself back on track? What are the major ways you slip, and how do they affect your overall mental state? Does the thought of working each day to better yourself overwhelm you? Do those thoughts get in the way of your path and journey in the light? How can you keep yourself on the right path? It’s different for each of us SLAYER, we all require and need different things to stay in the light. But there are a few things that we all share, one being that, we build self-esteem by doing estimable acts. When we honor who we are, when we are trustworthy, and giving of our true selves we keep that flame burning inside of us, so even when we may be a bit depleted due to lack of work on ourselves, we still operate from a pure place, a place that celebrates us and who we are, don’t let that flame go out, because it can be the hardest thing you have to do, to re-light your flame, many of us never do and it goes out forever, so keep it burning bright, and keep yourself in check, as we continue to trudge our roads on our way to our true destiny.
S – self L – love A – appreciate Y – you